HAPPY HOLIDAYS !!!!

My Wish for Everyone for Everyday

Peace, Love, Good Health, Long Life, Rewarding Employment, Friends, Dignity, Inspiration, Liberty, Equality, Happiness, Joy, Comfort, Hugs, Care, Respect, Acceptance, Courtesy, Recognition, Affection, Welcoming, Decent Shelter, Harmony, Spiritual Fulfillment, Adequate Food, Laughter, Music, and a Fruitcake.

I invite others to add their own good wishes -------------

Bah Humbug !

"Tis the season to be jolly - fa la la" - NOT!
A news article by LISA LEFF

SAN FRANCISCO - The sponsors of Proposition 8 asked the California Supreme Court on Friday to nullify the marriages of the estimated 18,000 same-sex couples who exchanged vows before voters approved the ballot initiative that outlawed gay unions.

The Yes on 8 campaign filed a brief arguing that because the new law holds that only marriages between a man and a woman are recognized or valid in California, the state can no longer recognize the existing same-sex unions. The document reveals for the first time that opponents of same-sex marriage will fight in court to undo those unions that already exist.

"Proposition 8's brevity is matched by its clarity. There are no conditional clauses, exceptions, exemptions or exclusions," reads the brief co-written by Kenneth Starr, dean of Pepperdine University's law school and the former independent counsel who investigated President Bill Clinton.

The campaign submitted the document in response to three lawsuits seeking to invalidate Proposition 8, the constitutional amendment adopted last month that overruled the court's decision in May that had legalized gay marriage in the nation's most populous state.

Both Attorney General Jerry Brown, whose office is scheduled to submit its own brief to the court Friday, and gay rights groups maintain that the gay marriage ban may not be applied retroactively.

The Supreme Court could hear arguments in the litigation as soon as March. The measure's backers announced Friday that Starr, a former federal judge and U.S. solicitor general, had signed on as their lead counsel and would argue the cases.

Proposition 8's supporters assert that the Supreme Court lacks the authority or historical precedent to throw out the amendment.

"For this court to rule otherwise would be to tear asunder a lavish body of jurisprudence," the court papers state. "That body of decisional law commands judges - as servants of the people - to bow to the will of those whom they serve - even if the substantive result of what people have wrought in constitution-amending is deemed unenlightened."

The cases are Strauss v. Horton, S168047; City and County of San Francisco v. Horton, S168078; and Tyler v. State of California, S168066.

"The Birds"

Yesterday morning at about 6:30am I was at the Trenton train station in New Jersey. All of a sudden the sky turned dark with hundreds of flying, screeching black birds. After flying around for awhile they began to perch on the overhead electrical wires, the trees, and roof edges. I was beset with a very uneasy feeling and wondered if I had just been transported into the Hitchcock movie - "The Birds". Then just as suddenly they all flew up and away. What a strange phenomenon. Was this a migration event - if so - why so many - why this location - where were they all going? Once again, nature astonishes and sometimes frightens me.

Fall Seminary Semester Completed

Yeah! Yesterday was my last class (3 hour exam) for the fall semester. Now maybe I can get into the holiday mood. Ho Ho Ho! I never imagined when I started this venture that there was that much to learn about religion. This past semester courses included: Religions in the City (very interesting course that included field trips to different houses of worship), Christian History (was somewhat difficult trying to assimilate dates, events, and all those popes - over 300), and my favorite - Using Psalms in Ministry. In the psalms course, the instructor encouraged us to apply our own interpretations and/or rewrite our own versions of the psalms while remaining true to the original intent. For a Unitarian Universalist, this was like giving candy to one with a sweet tooth.

Considering what I have been writing about lately, i would like to share my version of Psalm 2.

Why are the nations of the world in turmoil and people conspiring against each other?

Too often rulers of nations and their advisers take counsel together, against the righteous people of faith.

Saying, “Let us burst their alliances and cause discord amongst them.”

The heavens will laugh at them in scorn.

They will be held accountable and found hateful.

Divine righteousness will prevail.

Know this decree, “We are all children of the Divine and inheritors of the earth”.

Conspirers will be called to account for their transgressions and their authorities will be shattered.

Now therefore, rulers of all nations be wise and warned.

Serve with honesty and fairness; attend to the needs of your people or they will have cause to be angry and you will perish, for their wrath is quickly kindled.

Happy are all who take refuge on the path of righteousness.

Travesty of Justice (My Opinion)

U.S. Missing in Action on UN Declaration on LGBT Human Rights

The U.S. has declined to endorse a declaration being put before the UN assembly today, to which the Vatican and the Organisation of Islamic States have been vocal in their opposition, calling for the global decriminalisation of homosexuality.

I love the USA but shame on you!

What A Handsome Young Man Was I

Is This What Jesus Would Do?

I find this latest pronouncement by Catholic Church despicable. It is paramount to condoning those countries that impose the death penalty upon homosexuals. Is this not reverting back to “burn them at the stake” mentality?

The Vatican has said it opposes a European Union proposal for a United Nations declaration formally condemning discrimination against homosexuals, which it claims would "de-criminalize" same sex unions.

Monsignor Celestino Migliore, the Holy See's permanent observer at the UN, said the Catechism of the Roman Catholic Church forbade "unjust discrimination" against homosexuals. However outlawing discrimination by means of a UN declaration meant that states which did not recognise same sex marriages would come under pressure to do so.

All countries of the European Union have signed a draft declaration drawn up by France, which currently holds the rotating EU Presidency, condemning "discrimination based on sexual orientation and gender identity". France is due to submit the draft declaration at the UN General Assembly on 10 December, the sixtieth anniversary of the UN declaration of human rights.

Over 80 countries in the world currently outlaw same-sex relations, with punishments range from short prison sentences to life imprisonment and even death by execution. The UN declaration will not be binding, but gay rights movements hope it will lead to a UN resolution. The French minister of human rights and foreign affairs, Rama Yade, said that the EU should also "take the lead in stopping violence against women worldwide."

DIGNITY

I just read a very relevant and salient article entitled “Be a Dignitarian” by Robert Fuller and Pamela Gerloff, published in the winter 2008 edition of UU World. Herein, it states that Dignity is a primal need that everyone wants, craves, and seeks. People’s whole lives change when they are treated with dignity – and when they are not. All of us want to be treated with dignity. Fundamentally it is about respect and value. Yet routinely, we fail to accord dignity to those we perceive to be weaker (the oppressed) than us (the oppressor). Naming the problem of indignity is to identify it and make it visible and actionable. A good term for the source of if dignity violation is rankism.

Rankism is the abuse of power attached to rank. It is when those of a higher rank, i.e, those with power over another, threaten those of a lower rank in ways that violate their dignity. Rankism can be considered an umbrella term that encompasses many other “isms” that sets one group or individual apart from another and claims superiority. If we are ever to free ourselves from retaliatory rankist behavior, we will need to disallow rankism and instead create cultures of dignity. To create a dignitarian world, not only must rankism must be counteracted when it occurs, there needs to be an initiation of new processes, procedures, and training. Dignity for all is a stepping stone to realizing the democratic promise of liberty and justice.

World AIDS Day - Dec 01

Acknowledgment of this continuing crisis should be an everyday event and of all those who have lost their lives to this insidious disease. Remembering my friends, relatives, and countless others who have gone Somewhere Over the Rainbow. For my beloved friend, Chris - I miss you so much - you left us way too early. PS - Am disappointed how little attention was given to this day this year. Guess people were too busy trampling over others or shooting them for holiday sales.

Friendship

Call me sentimental but during this time of being thankful, I find myself reflecting on how blessed that I am to have such great and devoted friends. In no particular order >> LOVE you guys (Bruce, Jeff, Lennie, Terry, Dan S, Ed, Gus, David K, Byran, Charles, Marty, Tom, Jim, Bob V, Stan, Roger, Bob W, David M, Brodie, Dom, Sal, Nate, Dan J and so many more) !!

Ecclesiasticus (6:14-17) A faithful friend is a secure shelter; whoever finds one has found a treasure. A faithful friend is beyond any price; his worth is more than money can buy. A faithful friend is an elixir of life, found only by those who respect the Lord. The man who respects the Lord keeps his friendships in repair, for he treats his neighbor as himself.

Where is Waldo?

I just noticed that it has been over a month since my last posting. My time flies whether you are having fun or not. So for those wondering - "Where is Mark?" - am still up and about. Problem is I have not quite recovered from the malaise state that I was in during my last post and just have not been moved lately to expound on life. Outside of the positive election of Barack Obama and the Phillies win of the baseball world championship, things remain rather gloomy. The economy situation continues to deteriorate, human rights such as gay marriage continue to be denied, health issues are of concern, seminary studies plod along, gloomy and cold weather now prevails, getting older with more aches and pains, close friends have moved away, etc., etc. Cheer up Mark - things could get worse and then they did. So for now, know that the old curmudgeon is still around and I promise to make my next post more uplifting even if it is one of my usual rants and raves.

State of Malaise

Have not felt much like blogging lately but thought I would do a posting just so all would know that I am still functioning and ambulatory. It is just that the state of the world or is it the impeding end of the world lately; has put me in a state of malaise and melancholy. We've got an unpopular and incompetent President in the White House, trouble and conflicts in Iran, an economy spiralling ever downward (loss in value of my retirement funds by 60% so far), a credit crisis, raising unemployment, Russia invading neighboring countries, genocide in Darfur, natural disasters, global warming, an energy crisis, a crazed political situation, homicides and random acts of violence becoming the norm, etc., etc. Personally am overloaded with school work, hair is turning ever more gray, can't dance the night away anymore, need stronger eyeglasses and more dental work.

Now have I succeeded in making everyone else as depressed as I am? Sorry, it just seems like so much of it is beyond an individuals ability to control. Always having prided myself on being a self reliant individual, but that doesn't seem to be effective anymore. My prudent investments and savings, going "green" whenever possible, making thoughtful choices, educated political voting decisions, lobbying for stricter weapon laws, etc.; have made no significant impact.

Hopefully, for my next blog, I will find something more upbeat to write about. In the meantime, keep on truckin', you betcha, "Go Phillies".

Lipstick Smear

I know that once again I am shouting into the wind but here goes anyway. The economy is in the tank, we're about to invest trillions of dollars in a failed mortgage company, our troops are dying everyday overseas, hurricanes and natural disasters are plummeting our countryside, health care and insurance continues to be a disaster, job losses are escalating, state and city budgets are being slashed, homicides continue unabated, our food chain is being contaminated, etc., etc.

Yet the biggest stories of the week was whether Obama was making fun of Palin in his lipstick comment and McCain's six hundred dollar shoes and seven houses.

You can put lipstick on the media, but it is still a waste of time!

Not wishing to be cast as one, who can't play along in the spirit of the times. Let me say this to Sarah Palin - if you had spent more time reading books instead of attempting to ban them; perhaps, you would know that dinosaurs did not roam the earth 4,000 years ago.

Back to School

Fall semester has begun and here I am back at Union Theological Seminary for some additional studies. I am already swamped with reading and writing assignments. Still can't help but to reflect how the academic world has changed since I was last a full-time student (1977).

Back then you prepared yourself with pencils, pens, binders, note papers, required text books, a backpack, and maybe a "tape" recorder and a typewriter. Today, in addition to and/or instead of those items, a laptop computer is an absolute necessity plus a "digital" recorder, access to the internet and an email account, a printer, documentation software, a "PDF" reader, and a cell phone; just to name a few paraphernalia. Cost differential from about a hundred dollars to over a thousand. Tuition and other fees have also increased exponentially.

Yet, as I look around at my fellow students, it is the norm to take class notes on a laptop, to converse with the professor via email, to attend lectures that are presented via video or tutors (professor not present), download assignments and readings from the internet, acquire research material from libraries around the world via the web; all while "texting" on a cell phone or listening to the latest musical release on a portable player, the size of a pack of gum.

Can this "old dog" adjust and manage to acquire the education desired to be awarded a Master of Divinity degree. Well, as goes the old saying "Am going to give it the old college try". To tell the truth, am enjoying the intellectual stimuli and the beautiful campus.

Buddhist - Reflection 01

The lotus flower is a traditional Buddhist symbol of purity. A lotus is born from the mud at a bottom of a lake but blossoms above the water as a stainless flower that brings pleasure to all that see it. In a similar fashion, all beings are born in the ocean of suffering with impure bodies and minds, but if they train in mediation they can attain a completely pure body and mind, and bring peace an happiness to all who meet them.

The quality of life depends not on external development or material progress but on the inner development of peace and happiness. Without inner peace, outer peace is impossible. If we first establish peace within our minds by training in spiritual paths, outer peace will come naturally; but if we do not, world peace will never be achieved, no matter how many people campaign for it.

Visualize the ocean with a multitude of waves. Imagine that the self is one wave on the ocean, and surrounding us are many, many other waves. If the wave looks deeply within one's self, there will be a realization that ones being there depends upon the presence of all the other waves. Raising up and going down, being big or small depends entirely on how the other waves are. Looking into one's self, you touch the whole, you touch everything - you are conditioned by what there is around you. A wave is made of many other waves yet there is to be the realization that the wave is also made up of water. It is also important to touch the water, the foundation of one's being; and to realize that all the other waves are also made up of water. One thing contains everything. With the energy of mindfulness, one can see deeply.

Computer Crashed !!!!!

Early last Saturday, in accordance with my morning routine, I turned on my computer. To my dismal, after a couple of minutes, I received a message that the system could not be initialized due to a corrupt operating systems file. A joke right - never had any indication of a problem - computer only four years old (okay, I know in dog/computer years that is really 28) - so let's turn it off and on again. Same problem. Again. Same problem. Again! Again!! Again!!!. What to do? Of course, I have not done a backup since the beginning of time. Was going to order/buy another computer but had not got around to it. Seminary studies start up again in two weeks and a computer is an absolute must. Stomach now churning, beads of sweat dripping off forehead, dry mouth, feeling faint - what to do, what to do? Since when did we become so dependent on this piece of hardware. Thankfully, I just purchased an iPhone so at least I could still get my emails and connect to the Internet.

So, I call Dell for support. Ha, ha, ha. After an hour of trying to connect, got someone in India. I could not understand the representative and had to wait another fifteen minutes to connect to another rep. He laughed when I told him how old my computer was and said (what did I expect). What happened to product reliability? Then he said that I would properly have to wipe my memory and disk storage completely clean and reinstall the operating system; of course losing all my existing programs and data in the process. Yeek!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not willing to throw out the baby with the bath water, I starting calling around to the various computer "fix-it" doctors and geeks. Typical pricing ran $100 an hour, would take four to six hours, and it would be two to three days before they could work on it. All that time without a computer and for that pricing could buy a new one! Finally, found someone who agreed to come right out and look at it. Nice young man (college type) showed up and after an hour of trying this and that concluded that he had to take m computer to the shop to save the contents and reinstall the operating system.

Finally, got the system back on Tuesday evening and was so pleased to get my "baby" back (please forgive the personalization). Total charge was $200 but I got a break as he spent more than two hours on the restoration. What is the morale/lesson to be learned from this experience. I guess is not to become so dependent on a machine, backup your data and programs on a regular basis, do not put all your eggs in one basket (if affordable, have a second computer available).

Smell the Roses

Recently, I read an editorial written by Mike Wood of Instinct magazine that struck me as very pertinent and something we need to reminded during these days. An excerpt:

Do you ever get the feeling that with each passing minute, month, year, it seems like life is getting away from you? Well if you don't, you are one of the lucky ones.

It happens to me more often than I'd care to admit, but that's why every so often I've got to dig my heels in and say, "Whoa! Let's just slow down for a minute, please!"

Stop and smell the roses? Gotcha. Will do. As soon as there are some roses at my disposal for the sniffing. I'm all for it. Perhaps it was best stated by Ferris Bueller: "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it". As the cliches barrel at me, I acknowledge that these hackneyed phases couldn't be more trite. Or more true.

Periodically, it all comes rushing at me, and it sort of takes me by surprise. We are all getting older every day and getting on with with our lives, but have I really ever taken a moment to take it all in? Let it register? Well it is of utmost importance that I (we) do.

Time passes and lives change as we work and play and aspire and dream. We succeed. We fail. We thrive. Sometimes we disappoint. But as we continue on life's journey, hopefully we're trying to live our lives to the fullest without regret. Perhaps to leave behind an honorable legacy.

Pace yourself, live your life, love your life - - don't just blast through it. And if you get the opportunity, don't mock the cliche, smell the roses!

Wrestling with Consumerism

Lately, I have find myself in a bit of a dilemma. On the one hand, we as the public are being told that we should spend and consume as that is beneficial to the economy. It has the underlying effect of creating jobs, reducing our dependence on foreign interests, and raising our standard of living. On the other hand, have been told to save for a rainy day, consume less to save our resources, and to minimize one’s debt.

Personally, I have considered myself a moderate with respect to consumer spending. Most of my spending is usually concentrated on the “necessities” such as housing, food, clothing, medical/dental, education, etc. Also, as a believer in “going green”, consciously attempt to limit my footprint on this earth by recycling, avoiding chemically infused products, occupying less than a thousand square feet of living space, using public transportation whenever possible, etc., etc.

That being said, I just ordered/bought the new iPhone and am feeling a tad guilty while being excited about having one of these new toys. I have justified the purchase with the arguments that it is a multi-functional device thus replacing three other devices, it will be an assist tool in my academic studies and ministry activities, its ease of operation will be a time saver, and will be an enhancement in my communication exchanges. The counter arguments are that in reality it is a “want” not a real “need”, it is made in China, monthly expense will be more than I am paying now, requires disposal of a perfectly good phone, will probably have to be replaced in a couple of years, and woefully I have succumbed to enticements of the advertising media.

Why am I lamenting over this issue? Well, they say confession is good for the soul; but also to point out the life is full of choices and maintaining a balance that works for oneself. Yes, I have bought an iPhone but that does not mean that I am going to abandon my moderate approach to spending and over indulge by buying a fancy car, a giant screen television, huge apartment, etc. But I have to say and believe some indulgence every once in awhile is good for my psychic (soul). Now where is that piece of double chocolate cake?

Having a Heart - The Zen of OZ

This past Sunday, Aug 03, 2008, I had the privilege of arranging the services and to give the sermon at the First Unitarian Church of Philadelphia. This was a great honor and I would like to thank the settled minister, Rev. Nate Walker and the congregation for giving me that opportunity. Herein, is my sermon.

“Having a Heart”
The Zen of OZ
Mark DeCourval, Aug 03, 2008
First Unitarian Church of Philadelphia

As an OZphile (a lover of the OZ books), I frequently find myself drawing spiritual inspiration from the fourteen OZ books written by L. Frank Baum. I suspect most everyone here is familiar with the first book in the series entitled, The Wonderful Wizard of OZ, and the 1939 MGM movie of the same name starring Judy Garland. The movie has probably been seen by more people than any other film in motion picture history. What is it about this movie that captures our hearts? Maybe it is because, it has an inspiring philosophy all of its own. As the movie’s opening dedication very precisely states, “Time has been powerless to put its kindly philosophy out of fashion.” I submit to you that this kindness philosophy effectively touches a spiritual cord in each one of us because it has a certain Zen to it.

Let us consider briefly, the meaning of Zen and how it serves to enrich our spiritual being. Zen practice is Buddhist in origin; it is a form of meditation that seeks to attain an intuitive illumination of mind and spirit. One, hopefully, realizes an “awakening” and spiritual enrichment through the direct individual assessment of one’s own experiences rather than through theory and the study of religious texts.

It seems to me that upon examination, the books and movie overflow with Zen wisdom. At the risk of letting one’s imagination run amok. I see the land of OZ actually being governed by a spontaneous creative Force that can do everything by doing nothing. Glinda, the good witch is clearly a Zen Master setting Dorothy on the Yellow Brick Road to enlightenment. Ultimately, Dorothy attains an experience of “awakening”. She finds her true self, her higher consciousness, her ultimate oneness with the cosmos, her home.

One of my favorite chapters and/or scenes is when the Wizard bestows on the Tin Man, who was seeking a heart, a huge heart-shaped watch and chain. He then urges his sentimental friend to remember that “a heart is not judged by how much you love, but how much you are loved by others.” For many years, I misread this statement as most do - - simply as “You will be judged by how much you love others.” No, the statement truly reads “a heart is not judged by how much you love, but how much you are loved by others.” So what exactly does the Wizard mean? The Wizard’s seemingly simple statement is actually a koan. In Zen, a koan is a riddle with no apparent meaning. A Zen Master often puts such a riddle before a student to train the mind to obtain an experience of awakening. The riddle is: Is a heart judged by how deeply you are loved by others? Or is the depth of your love the true measure of a heart?

How deeply you are loved by others, does reveal the sincerity of your love for others. No one loves the Wicked Witch, for instance, because she does not have a smidgen of love for anyone. She does not mourn the death of her sister and wants to eliminate Dorothy so as to seize control over OZ. Her motives are selfish and egocentric. She has no heart. She loves no one and no one loves her in return. The Wizard, on the other hand, is loved by the citizens of OZ as long as he protects them. But the Wizard’s love for the citizens is not genuine for he protects them only to remain in power.

How much you are loved by others is equal to how deeply you love. If your love for others is unconditional, you will be much more loved than a person whose love is selfish and motivated by greed. Love expands. Selfishness contracts. The more you expand and feel for others, the more you purify your own heart, aligning yourself with the Oneness of all things. In other words the love, sympathy, appreciation, compassion, and affection you receive are in direct proportion to what you give. The Wizard is essentially telling the Tin Man the same thing that Zen Masters and poets have been telling the world for centuries: “What goes around comes around.”

Hopefully, I have illustrated a little of the Zen philosophy that is contained in the stories of OZ. May your journey down the Yellow Brick Road make your life glorious and joyful in every way.


At this point, I would have concluded my talk to you today. However, the tragic event that occurred last Sunday at the Tennessee Valley Unitarian Universalist Church has struck our church family so profoundly as to evoke the “Why Response” in me. I believe this response is fairly typical. We want to know – Why did this happen? Why didn’t anyone see this coming? Why does an all-loving deity allow this to happen? Why can there not be a realization that we need not think alike to love alike. Why, Why. Why? I have yet to hear an explanation from a Zen Master, a Theologian or the Wizard of OZ, himself, that satisfies me. Instead of focusing on the Why, for which we may find never find a satisfactory answer and to be beset with melancholy, it might be better to focus on the Zen Five Steps of Healing:

1) Acceptance – it has happened and may happen again. Just this past week, a couple more tragic events took place in Wisconsin and Canada.
2) Presence – being aware of the time in which we are living. It is a very troublesome time of wars, global warming concerns, economic problems, political disputes, etc. More than ever we must be vigilant while still nourishing our emotional well being.
3) Action – overcoming the emotional numbness & initiating an action plan. Considering what we can do to protect ourselves and what changes can be instrumental in effecting a mitigation of these tragedies.
4) Forgiveness- taking care not to be overcome with hate, resentment, bitterness. Herein, I often reflect on how our brothers and sisters in a nearby Amish community were so forgiving when they were brutally assaulted.
5) Integration – allow the crisis to generate a sense of new meanings, to rebuild confidence, and develop acceptance and resilience.

Negotiating these five steps is very difficult and personally I am stuck on step 3 Action and step 4 Forgiveness.

Here I am reminded of some words of wisdom from Randy Pausch, a very inspiring Professor of Computer Sciences, who just recently died. When faced with a brick wall that has you stuck, don’t try crashing it down “head on” where you will never succeed – but seek out ways around the wall. It may be challenging but therein lays success.

May all that is Holy guide us through these difficult times and challenges.

Assembly Required

Why is in this day and age when you buy a product, it is required that you assemble it yourself? This typically includes such items as bicycles, grills, bookcases, picnic tables, storage cabinets, etc. Recently, this extended to a file cabinet that I purchased. After spending about $200 for this piece of furniture, it was wrongfully assumed that it would be delivered already assembled. No, it arrives in a flat box with a zillion pieces and directions that appear to be written in hieroglyphics. I admit to not being mechanically inclined and thus it took me over three hours to assemble this cabinet and other half an hour to clean up all the plastic packing material. By some miracle, I did finally get it together but how about all the other times that I or others have not be able, or found pieces to be missing, or fastened something incorrectly, or ended up with extra pieces requiring a disassemble and reassemble. I know the argument is that assembled merchandise would cost more but there are times I would exchange paying a little more for something rather than to spend hours of my time on something that may or may not result in a properly assembled product. I know this rant is not going to change the nature of business but it makes me feel better. Now what is the purpose of this hardware that I have left over and where is my cat?

The Wicked Witch is Dead

I known this reference is totally inappropriate for a ministry student but considering that this man spent most of his adult life and political influence in opposing civil rights and denying government services to a portion of the population that he was personally prejudiced against ; hopefully, grants me some leeway. He fought bitterly against government assistance for AIDS research and treatment , saying the disease resulted from unnatural and disgusting behaviors of homosexuals. Another quote of his "The Negro cannot count forever on the kind of restraint that's thus far left him free to clog the streets, disrupt traffic, and interfere with other men's rights". He was much more than just a bigot, he spent his poltical career supporting inequality at home and violence abroad; all in the name of morality.

To all those who died too soon or who lived without being able to enjoy life to its fullest as a result of Jess Helms and his actions and influence, may you now find peace.

Individuals Have Gun Rights

Once again, I find myself comforted on how our government protects our rights (in case you may be wondering yes - this is a sarcastic remark). The Supreme Court on June 26, 2008 ruled that individuals have the right to keep and bear firearms. The decision was applauded by Bush and Cheney, of course. Justice Scalia went on to say that "the handgun is Americans' preferred weapon of self-defense as it can be pointed at a burglar with one hand while the other hand dials the police (imagine sounds of me choked up here). So there you have it my fellow Americans.

The economy is going to hell in a hand basket. Oil companies, banks, credit card companies, health organizations, etc. enjoy what amounts to monopolies - charging us exorbitant fees and denying services, gun violence and murder on the streets of our cities is at an all time high, our privacy has been compromised under the guise of the Patriotic Act, discrimination with regards to marriage and serving in the armed forces, etc. continues unabated, the infrastructure of the country is deteriorating at an ever faster clip, cities/counties are flooded or burning, costs of basics such as food, shelter, and clothing are at an all time high, the stock market dips lower and lower; but guess what, it has been reaffirmed that we have the right to possess and use a weapon. I am almost am tempted to go out and buy a gun and shoot myself in the head (oops suicide is against the law but killing a fellow human - that is not necessarily illegal).

What a Difference a Month Makes!

Was my blog updates missed? Whether Yes or No, I am back. It has been a month since I had my right knee replacement surgery. So far I am pleased to report that my recovery is going well and according to plan. At this juncture, I can walk limited distances without a cane, negotiating stairs - one step at a time, and the bouts of pain are less frequent and intense. I have been assisted in my recovery by an outstanding home visiting nurse, physical therapist, and my friends. My follow up appointment with the doctor is July 1st and I am hoping to be "discharged" and given permission to drive again. Frankly, am getting a little "steer crazy" and having caught up with all the missed episodes of 7th Heaven; I need to get out into the wild and wide world again.

More personal good news. I have officially been accepted into the Master of Divinity program at Union Theological Seminary. My admission had been in a "pending" status that was contingent on my non-degree class grades. I am pleased to report that I did very well in my classes, even receiving a credit with distinction.

This should do it for blog reporting on the personal for awhile and back to more general interest topics and my usual "rants and raves".

OUCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I did not "chicken out" and last Thursday checked myself into the hospital and acquired myself a new knee. The surgery went well and the surgeon tells me that he did another excellent job (love his modesty). The pain being experienced during this post operative/recovery period is intense. It is like hot razors slicing into my knee and leg. No, it is like a nest of wasps stinging me in anger over and over again. No, it is like nails are being pounded into the flesh after the skin has been peeled off. If I have not conveyed yet the intensity, did hear one woman say that she rather give child birth than experience this pain. Now know why some people choose not to have this procedure done. They say in a couple of weeks I will be celebrating that I "walked through the fire". Sure hope so! Had a dear friend (Bob) stay with me for the first week following the surgery and words can not express how much I appreciated his support, comfort, and caring. Now am looking forward to navigate without use of a walker and cane. Till then ----

Knee Replacement

Well after four years of limping around and enduring pain in my right knee due to advanced osteoarthritis I am admitting myself into the hospital tomorrow for knee replacement surgery. Am I anxious, nervous, apprehensive, and having second thoughts - oh yes. But I have been reassured by the doctor, nurses, friends, and others that have had the procedure done, I will be thankful that I went ahead and did it. I truly hope so. I love to walk, hike, and square dance and so if I will able to do those activities again without pain and stiffness, it will be worth it. I am not looking forward to the post surgery pain, physical therapy sessions, being immobile for a few weeks, and missing the pool opening this weekend but as they say into each life a little rain must fall. Who is the "they" that make all this pithy remarks anyways? I appreciate all of you who have offered me words of comfort and volunteered assistance. Now let me play the little engine. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can!

"California Here We Come"

It's an unforgettable day for same-sex couples and advocates of fairness and opportunity across the nation! The California Supreme Court has ruled that the state may no longer exclude same-sex couples from civil marriage.

"Our state now recognizes that an individual's capacity to establish a loving and long-term committed relationship with another person and responsibly to care for and raise children does not depend upon the individual's sexual orientation, and more generally, that an individual’s sexual orientation — like a person’s race or gender does not constitute a legitimate basis upon which to deny or withhold legal rights." Chief Justice Ron George wrote for the court's majority.

While this is a victory step, now attention must be given to make sure that discrimination is not written into the state constitution in California through a ballot initiative.

On a hopeful note, Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger released a statement immediately after the opinion was issued saying he would uphold the ruling. "Also, as I have said in the past, I will not support an amendment to the constitution that would overturn this state Supreme Court ruling," he added.

Friends of Dorothy

As an OZphile am providing this report courtesy of Entertainment Weekly (May 16, 2008).

Two movie studios are now working on new versions of the Wizard of OZ. Producers Wyck Godfrey and Marc Platt just received a script from Darren Lemke (of Shrek Goes Fourth fame) that closely follows Frank L. Baum's 1900 novel which represents OZ as a real place - not a dreamland. They're now waiting to hear if Universal wants to proceed with the story. Producer Todd McFarlane (of Spawn fame), meanwhile has had his own project, simply titled OZ, set up at Warner Bros. since 2007.

Shameful Action by Pennsylvania Senators

On May 5, 2006, a Pennsylvania Senate committee voted 18-8 to send Senate Bill 1250, which would place a measure on the ballot banning same-sex marriage, to the full Senate for a vote. Measure must now be approved in two consecutive legislative sessions for it to be placed on the ballot.

{From my perspective, not only is this flagrant discrimination, but is akin to putting our civil rights into a flag draped coffin and burying them.}

Good News Update !!

Although it took Senator Vince Fumo talking about slavery, calling his colleagues gay and saying he wanted to outlaw divorce, he succeeded in getting the anti-gay marriage amendment tabled. His last few months in office are going to be interesting. Who is going to be our ally when he is gone? Will we even have one?

Completed First Semester - Union Seminary

Awhile back, I noted that I had returned to the academic world and had enrolled for classes at Union Theological Seminary in New York. Good news and "???" news. I successfully completed my first semester and received very positive evaluations from my professors. I very proud of my achievements (if I do say so myself) as it was not an easy venture for me going back to school after so many years and having to commute to New York from Philadelphia via bus. The ??? hitch that I am referring to is that because of an enrollment timing issue, I had to take the classes as a non-degree student. I have since applied for status as an Master of Divinity student but my admission has been put into a "hold/pending" status. Seems like the evaluation committee was concerned as to whether I was ready or not (whatever that means). Been told what that means is that they will make a final decision after reviewing my class evaluations. I am hopeful based on the feedback that I got from my professors and my own sense of accomplishment. I really want this so please extend support, positive energy, and prayers. Meanwhile, I continue to do a lot of volunteer work for my home church, First Unitarian Church of Philadelphia. Stop by and say Hi, sometime. And an advertising note, we are having a Bali Ha'i South Pacific Auction and Entertainment event tomorrow May 3, 2008 at 5:30pm. Please stop by; who knows, you may catch me in a grass skirt (not).

Worst Political Debate Ever

Tomorrow is primary voting day in Pennsylvania and as of right now I have no idea as to whom I am voting for. I have tried to be an informed citizen during this very long adnauseam pre-election period but to no avail. I have to blame some of that due to the inept media coverage. Recently there was televised debate in Philadelphia between Clinton and Obama and it was pathetic. In fact, there were times when during the debate where it ventured into territory so utterly asinine that I could scarcely believe what I was witnessing. The entire first hour was dedicated to silly campaign queries and scandals both du jour and d'antan. Before a single question was posed about the war in Iraq or the economy was asked, the viewing audience had to wade through the following: Any chance at a "Dream Ticket?", "Bitter, much?","Do you think your opponent stands a chance against McCain?","What about Reverend Wright?","Hey, Why do you not wear an American flag lapel pin?". I was waiting to hear the question, do you wear boxers or briefs?

No questions were asked, as far as I could tell, about the torture memos, about FISA, about health care, about deregulation, about the housing mortgage crisis, the world food crisis, global warming, al Qaeda or Pakistan. Not only did Gibson frame his economic question entirely in the terms of the discredit supply-side economics, he then argued with the candidates about their answers! Each candidate was given one minute to talk about gas prices! This was the worst debate I can remember ever watching. It was a complete travesty, a two hour object lesson in the complete and utter collapse of the media and an insult to the intellect of the American people.

Axed by the Tax Man

Once again the tax man has welted his mighty ax. Yes folks, I had to pay up this tax day a substantial sum. And what is my hard earned monies going towards: government waste, a no win and unjust war, pet political projects, inept and uncaring government services, invasion of civic rights under the guise of the Patriot Act, indicted politicians, scandals ad nausea, economy in a recession, a marriage defense act, escalating energy costs, joblessness at an all time high, increasing taxes, decaying infrastructures, and of course the disparities (DISCRIMINATION) that gay couples face because they are denied the federal tax benefits that go with marriage. I could continue this harangue but believe that I made my point and in the interest of time and my sanity will close out with this quote from Mahatma Gandhi - "You must be the change, you wish to see in the world".

HAPPY SPRING !!

Heartfelt Congratulations !!

----- to Rev. Nathan C. Walker on his installation on March 30, 2008 as settled minister of the First Unitarian Church of Philadelphia. May he have a long, fruitful, and rewarding tenure.

Here We go Again !

The Pennsylvania state senate is once again taking up a proposal to amend the Pennsylvania constitution to ban gay marriage.
A constitutional amendment legislation failed in the last legislative session but is being considered anew in the current session.
During a Senate committee hearing, Maggie Gallagher, President of the National Organization for Marriage, said an amendment to the state constitution would protect against a judge’s ruling that could strike down state law defining marriage as between a man and woman. “It’s not a fantasy that this could happen. It is happening – it’s happened in New Jersey, it’s happened in Connecticut”
Gallagher was speaking to Republican Senator Jane Earll of Erie, skeptical of the need for a constitutional amendment: “We are going to hold our constitution hostage to the wackiest judge in some other state. I just think that amending the constitution is a very drastic measure”
Earll called the push for a constitutional amendment ‘perplexing’.

I not only find it perplexing but discrimatory and would like to remind the citizens of the Commonwealth of Pennsylvania that our constitution needs no such amendment and that within the very first Article, sections 1 and 26 read as follows (bold emphasis is mine):

Inherent Rights of Mankind Section 1.
All men are born equally free and independent, and have certain inherent and indefeasible rights, among which are those of enjoying and defending life and liberty, of acquiring, possessing and protecting property and reputation, and of pursuing their own happiness.

No Discrimination by Commonwealth and Its Political Subdivisions Section 26.
Neither the Commonwealth nor any political subdivision thereof shall deny to any person the enjoyment of any civil right, nor discriminate against any person in the exercise of any civil right.

Meanwhile in my fair city of Philadelphia ----

Philadelphia is featuring its locals in a series of travel ads to be launched this week hoping to attract LGBT tourism. The "We Your People" campaign will target local newspapers in Chicago, Ft. Lauderdale, Pittsburgh and Columbus to be followed with national gay magazines and promotions by Southwest Airlines and The Greater Philadelphia Tourism Marketing Corporation.

Pictured in the first ad is Matthew Izzo, owner of Matthew Izzo Boutiques. Other Philly locals to be featured are Marcie Turney and Valerie Safran, owners of Lolita, Bindi, Grocery and Open House; Stephen Carlino and Dennis Fee, owners, Tavern on Camac; Charlie Potje, owner, Charlie Salon; Mark Segal, journalist/publisher/gay pioneer, Philadelphia Gay News; Tami Sortman, president, Philadelphia Gay Tourism; Anh Dang, president, Philadelphia GLBT Swim Club; RJ Thornburg and Warren Muller, owners, bahdeebahdu gallery; Michael Sparano and Rocco Giancaterino, owners, Salon Royale Court.

Senseless Times

Just when you think that times are changing and humanity is making enlightened progress, one is confronted with current events that dispel all optimism. It is not often I feel compelled to climb up on the proverbial soapbox (there need not be any eye rolling here) but due to a seemly lack of public outrage, I need to shout out or bust. Just a few events that have recently incited me are:

1) An eight grader, named Larry King, because he is different (maybe gay) is killed by a fellow student.
2) Four white women attack a female reporter covering a homicide investigation. Another white reporter is not threatened. Bystanders do nothing.
3) Gay Iranian Medi Kazemi, who will surely be executed if he returns to Iran, may be denied asylum by the Netherlands and the United Kingdom because of some legal technicality.
4) Geraldine Ferraro publicly states that if Obama was a white man, he would not be in his present position.
5) Oklahoma Senator Sally Kern tells us that homosexuality is a greater threat to American than terrorism and that the homosexual agenda is destroying the nation.
6) To date almost 4,000 US military men and women have been killed fighting a futile battle in Iraq.
7) The American economy is on the brink of a recession.
8) The homicide rate in Philadelphia (my fair city) now stands at almost 60 for just this year. Last year reached the dubious distinction of over 400.

Again why is there no public outrage? Why is there no action being initiated to make the necessary changes. Why does the nightly news spend ten minutes on the benefits/dangers of Botox and three minutes on the Iraq war. Why is the story of Larry King's death followed by commercial on drugs to make you feel better? Why, Why, Why?

I recently read that remnants of various drugs have been found in our drinking water. Do those drugs contain bigotry, hate, apathy, discrimination, stupidity, lack of caring and self respect? If so, may I suggest that we stop drinking the water and wake up before it is too late. We live in a cold, uncaring world and it is up to us to build caring, warm fires.

Back in School

Mm - over two weeks since I last posted. Well, am going to use the excuse that school is keeping me busy. That is right. I have returned to the academic world. After a thirty some year absence have decided to once again "hit the books" and pursue getting another Master's degree. This time am working towards a Masters of Divinity from Union Theological Seminary located adjacent to the Columbia University in New York city. Aside from having to commute a couple of times a week to New York from Philly, there are lots and lots of readings and papers to do. Don't remember school being this demanding and now laptop computers have replaced the quill pen and ink. I do enjoy the intellectual stimuli but the grunt work, not at all. The question is - can I persevere? As a part time student, it will take me a least six years. Stamina steroids anyone (just kidding)? One might ask, why am I doing this. Well aside from enjoying the intellectual and learning aspect, coming to terms with my spiritual identity, I aspire to ordination as a Unitarian Universalist minister someday. Every since I can remember, I have always wanted to be a part of and work in the ministry but life happened and took me every which way but there. So now that I finally have the opportunity, am going for it. Let's pray that I make it.

Normal (?)

Newsworthy, I have just been declared normal. For all you skeptics, please note that I was so declared by a licensed doctor and a certified nurse. Okay, an explanation. A few weeks ago, I was experiencing some tightening and dull ache in my left chest area. My primary doctor did a EKG and noted a slight abnormality. Off to the specialist. Last Friday, I was subjected to a battery of tests including: a stress, echo, and ultrasound. Yesterday I was called with the results of the tests and advised that I was normal, or more accurately - the test results were normal. Well, to say the less, it was good news in consideration of my other ailments and age. Now as to my on-going behavior, rest assured - not normal.

Still Scared !

WASHINGTON (Feb. 14) - Water, water, everywhere, nor any drop pristine,might be the lament of today's Ancient Mariner. Oceans cover more than 70 percent of the planet, and every single spot has been affected by people in some way. Scientists revealed a new map on Thursday that shows marine ecosystems around the world that have been affected by human activities. High impact areas are shown in red, followed by dark orange, light orange,yellow, green and blue, which signals low impact. Researchers studying 17 different activities ranging from fishing to pollution compiled a new map showing how and where people have impacted the seas. The map was released at the annual meeting of the American Association for the Advancement of Science in Boston and published in Friday's edition of the journal Science. "Our results show that when these and other individual impacts are summed up, the big picture looks much worse than I imagine most people expected. It was certainly a surprise to me," said lead author Ben Halpern, an assistant research scientist at the National Center forEcological Analysis and Synthesis at the University of California.

Am I the only one scared & a little nervous?

"The Senate voted yesterday to give the U.S. government more unconstrained power to

spy on its citizens as it granted telecom companies immunity from lawsuits related to such surveillance. On a 68 to 29 vote, the Senate approved the reauthorization of a law that would

give the government greater powers to eavesdrop interrorism and intelligence cases without obtaining warrants from a secret court. The Senate's action, days before a temporary surveillance law expires Friday, sets up a clash with House Democrats, who have previously approved legislation that does not contain immunity for the telecommunications industry. The chambers have been locked in a standoff over the immunity provision since the House vote Nov. 15, with President Bush demanding the protection for the industry."

This recalls to mind a poem by Pastor Martin Niemiller

First they came for the Jew

and I did not speak out because I was not a Jew.

Then they came for the Communists

and I did not speak out because I was not a Communist.

Then they came for the trade unionists

and I did not speak out because I was not a trade unionist.

Then they came for me

and there was no one left

to speak out for me.

Desire

Saw this on an MTA Poetry in Motion subway placard this morning.
Struck me as one of life's truisms.

If there is something to desire,
there will be something to regret.
If there is something to regret,
there will be something to recall.
If there is something to recall,
there was nothing to regret.
If there was nothing to regret,
there was nothing to desire.

By Vera Pavlova

Confucius on Utopia

"When the perfect order pervails, the world is like a home shared by all. Virtuous and worthy men are elected to public office, and capable men hold posts of gainful employment in society: peace and trust among all men are the maxims of living. All men love and respect their own parents and children, as well as the parents and children of others. There is caring for the old: there are jobs for the adults: there are nourishment and education for the children. There is a means of support for the widows and widowers: for all who find themselves alone in the world: and for the disabled. Every man and woman has an appropriate role to play in the family and society. A sense of sharing displaces the effects of selfishness and materialism. A devotion to public duty leaves no room for idleness. Intrigues and conniving for ill gain are unknown. Villians such as thieves and robbers do not exist. The door to every home need never be locked and bolted by day or night. These are the characteristics of an ideal world, the commonwealth state."

I thought this appropriate in consideration of the current political climate and state of the world. With due respect to Confucius, the word person should be substituted for man and men.

My New Baby

Am the father of a "new baby" now that my other has departed.
Sob, sob, cry, cry --------

Probably should clarify that "my other baby" was a Mazda RX8 2004.

Bought end of 2003 when I was going through one of life's crisis.

I loved that car, the purring rotary engine, sleek design, comfort, smooth ride, etc, etc.

Now living in Philadelphia, keeping the Mazda was just not practical.

Some reasons were:

1) Not a car that could be driven in winter snow.

2) Very low gas mileage.

3) Used only premium gas - getting very expensive.

4) No trunk or cargo room.

5) Become a problem to start up and stalling (weakness of this model after 10,000 miles)

6) A little large for parking in my cramped parking facility.

7) Required frequent oil fills due to rotary engine type.

8) Maintenance had to be done only at Dealer - several miles away.

9) Very high insurance premiums.

10) Booty got scratched in parking garage (not really a reason).

11) My friend, Roger is on his second new car since I got mine (also not really a reason).

So what did I get - a Honda Fit. A fairly inexpensive small SUV. So far like it - small but lots of room on the inside. Got for a even exchange - just had to pay taxes, transfer fees, etc. But why, why - did it take 3 hours at the dealer to conclude the deal. Had to look at models, test drive, negotiate/barter/argue (hate this part - they initially wanted $3,000 + trade-in - had to walk out twice before I worked them down), then listen to pitch on all the add-ons, warranties etc and turn them down). Exhausting process but think it all worked okay in the end. Will miss "my Mazada baby" - she was a fun ride - but here is to moving on.

Happiness

Recently, I received an email from a dear friend, who commented that my blog lately is sounding like I am an unhappy curmudgeon. He then questioned why I was not more happy.

Happiness - that elusive, often temporary state of great pleasure, contentment, elation and optimism. I thought about his comment and reflected - in general, am I happy? The answer is an unequivocal YES!

Sadly, it is so easy to get caught up with and focus on the various annoyances in life rather than all that is positive and going well for us. Like the stone in the shoe - it sure annoys and makes us unhappy with its presence but the normal absence of the stone does not evoke a positive and happy response.

Actually, I currently am experiencing one of the happiness times of my life. At the risk of sounding self elating, am going to mention some reasons why.

Last March, I retired from full time employment after many, many years working for 'the man". So time is now my own, offering me the opportunity to pursue various self interest activities. Fortunately, my monthly retirement stipend is adequate enough that I don't have to work as a WalMart greeter or some other mundane job. I have moved back to Philadelphia, a city that I love and that has a great variety of inner city amenities. I have a great affordable apartment in a well maintained building that provides a pool, gym, library, computer room, parking facilities, and a helpful and courteous staff. Great neighbors and have met many friendly residents within the area. Have easy access to great public transportation of all types. Wonderful shopping is within easy walking distance including Trader Joes, Whole Food, Wine/Beer Outlet plus book, antique, toy stores and great restaurants. Also, to be mentioned are the theaters, movies, concerts, libraries and social "watering holes". Recently, had a big scare when I was diagnosed with CLL (Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia) but then got some good news that it was in the very early stages, was non-aggressive and should not require treatment for several years. Along the medical lines, am scheduled for a knee replacement next month so soon can resume being a dancing fool. Then, just yesterday was informed that I had been accepted at Union Theological Seminary where I can pursue studies and hopefully realize ordination as a Unitarian minister. Last, but most importantly all my dear personal friends who have extented their love and support these many years - a true font of great happiness for me.

In conclusion, I want to Thank You, David for pointing out my recent negativism and while I can't promise never to moan and groan again, I will try to focus and blog more on the positive aspects of my life.

Curmudgeon - Hum Bug!

Packaging

Today it is 52 degrees and raining cats and dogs in Philadelphia. Is it not January? Global Warming is a reality! "Raining cats and dogs" - sayings like that - ever wonder what they mean and their origin? Anyway, good day to do some blogging.

I have lamented (okay -ranted) on the subject of packaging before. But something has got to be done. Yesterday, got myself overwhelmed with it all. Started off trying to open up a DVD. First had to remove it out of a cardboard sleeve, cut open the plastic wrap that static keep it sticking to my fingers, peel off three strips of security tape around the edges that resisted several efforts, and finally snap the DVD out of the case that would not release. Twenty minutes later succeeded with a pile of trash and frustration. Oh, cost of DVD was $6.99 - not a national treasure to warrant such security.

Time for lunch. Thought a nice ham and cheese sandwich would be nice. Ham was sealed in a plastic type of pouch. "Tear here to open" - not unless you are Hercules. Ended up cutting along the dotted line. Resealable package now open - not - had to literally cut around the edge of the ham slices to remove. Package now is now not resealable so into the trash. Now for the cheese - similar exercise but each piece of cheese is separated by a piece of paper. Does someone have a phobia of two pieces of cheese touching each other? Mustard jar - only a pair of pliers could remove the lid. Thankfully, the bread wrap torn open. Pickles, not even going to try to open that jar.

Now at this point, you would think that I had enough. But no, just had got myself a new action figure and was anxious to display it. How do you even go about breaking open the hard plastic clam shell? Scissors, knife, screwdriver, hammer, hacksaw - no way. Finally got a box cutter to work. Be very careful about ones fingers, etc and do it on a cutting board. Then had the joy of untwisting twelve twist ties, several pieces of tape and string. Are we done yet? No, the back of the head is glued to the cardboard backing. How to remove without cutting a piece of hair out. Ah, manicure scissors very carefully. Finally, Captain Jack Sparrow - you are mine, mine at last!

Did I mention that I live in an apartment building that limits how much trash can be put out in one day. Guess that I will be apportioning my out over the next few days. Seriously though what a terrible waste of resources and how many products have been damaged in the unpackaging. The madness has got to stop before I myself go stark raving MAD! Now, where is that triple sealed package of cookies?

Nuff Said

Couldn't resist after my "New Year Resolutions" post.

New Year Resolutions

Ti's that time of year again where one feels compelled to resolve for betterment in the New Year. Sadly, the problem is not in the making of resolutions; it is in the keeping of them. Perhaps, the most commonly made resolution is to eat more healthy. Typically, this takes the form of going on a diet that at best last about two weeks. So then why would I consider a dietary change? Because last year, I resolved to eliminate trans fats from my diet and with the help of government intrusion into our private lives, have been fairly successful and lost about twenty pounds.

This has inspired me to attempt to eliminate from my diet another food poison - high fructose corn syrup. Another easy step towards my healthy eating goal - or so I thought - but a quick look at the ingredients in the prepared foods in my pantry revealed a rather shocking surprise. It is in practically everything! It is in my favorites - ketchup, salad dressing, mayonnaise, soy milk, tomato sauce and paste, carmel corn, peanut butter, crackers, and even in my high fiber bran cereal and arthritis medication. It is often listed as the second or third prevalent ingredient in these foods. Is the food industry trying to kill us? So it would seem that I have a bigger challenge than I anticipated. While it may not be a easy step, I am going forth with some baby steps with greater awareness and concerted effort to reduce my fructose ingestion. Wish me luck, I know that I will need it. Will post on my success or lack thereof.